I am the type of girl everyone labels “sweet.” I have been described as on-the-ball, perfectionistic, creative, quiet, and many other adjectives, but 90% of the time, people call me sweet.That is the way I am.
I always associated “sweet” with “good.” I’m naturally good. I thought.
Boy, was I so wrong.
I didn’t realize that I was “sweet” and “good” because my patience hadn’t been really tested. I’d been livin’ the easy life. Everything was going fine. And when everything is fine, its easy to be an awesome, patient, kind, sweet girl.
So why is the “sweet” girl in the airport having horrible, mean thoughts about her awesome sister?
I was tense and cold.
Bored to tears
Scared to death.
Shivering in the air-conditioned waiting area.
perched on hard blue chairs
My body was achy from sitting.
I snapped at my mom.
I was the Sarcasm Queen.
I griped about the airport’s chairs
griped about the speakers
griped about the temperature
My happy pink thoughts became murderous black ones.
I was one nasty girl.
I surprised myself badly. Where’s my self control? I wondered. Where’s the patience that I’m known for? I was ashamed of myself. Hunched the airport’s miserable-excuse-for-a-chair, I gazed out the rain-drop spattered glass windows, as plane after plane slid down the runway, thinking, “My goodness, I’m not a nice person. I can’t even stop all this griping and irritated thoughts.
Travel taught me…I’m not a nice person.
Thing is, I should have known that. The Bible says not one is righteous, not even one. Not you, not me. The thought of man is continually on wicked things. God made men upright, but they have sought out many devices.
We need God’s help to be righteous.
Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
1 Cor. 5:21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.
This righteousness is given through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe.
What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith.